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Useless piece of shit. Zzz. Damn it. There's just nothing to do online, okay include offline.
I just wish I can pack up my bags like my sis and go study abroad. And at the same time try to forget everything I ever regretted or should forget. No, not people I know. Never ever. Just some fucked up memories I wish I was able to forget years ago. I don't know why the hell am I still able to remember everything so vividly. Bloody nightmare. I wish someone would just shake me up and tell me it's a nightmare.
I think people with short term memory are just so blessed. Blessed with a capital B.
Sometimes you may not be as good in one area but better at something else.
I told someone that, or something similar.
I realised I have many areas I'm so bad in. There's so many things slapping me in the face now. Go ahead, throw more problems to me. Like I don't already have enough. I can't seem to hide my emotions anymore. Like how my mum recently keeps asking me if I'm sad or crying. Nonstop. Shit. I'd just be sitting next to her watching TV then the thoughts would just flood back. Not so much of the TV's fault. Yea okay. So I put the blame on the TV. What other reason can I whip up? And does that mean I should stop watching TV then rot more, think more, cry more?
My fault really.
Give me time. Now I think I see the need to forgive someone. Myself.
Okay tell me what's the point of trying to sleep early or maybe even late when I wake up early either way.
My third vulgarity for the year? Pardon me. I'm just so pissed at myself.
Okay I'm done ranting. Feeling a whole load better but still like crap. Worse than crap. Maybe shit. Whatever.
What the shit is wrong with me today? I don't know. Don't ask me.
I think I said too much. I'll shut up for now. I think that'd be the wisest decision I'd make today.